no trip!!

In thousand moments there might be one single second only when I can dare to say my feelings have not been crushed. Otherwise crushed feelings have taught to be strong and strong. I can write this after I learnt the fact of cancellation of my most awaited tour to south India. I have never been to south and so was quite keenly looking toward the journey but all is over and am landing in summer into my home. I enjoy leaning back down at home but was happy to go out with parents to some other place and for now am little bit down this no journey factor.
 
                                                                       I guess never ever plan things because almighty have your planning will rarely go with planned stuff. So for now ?I don't really know what have summer to do with me this time. I am fixed with study material...and guess should at least pretend to complete look into that.

Why I dunno things are moving faster than me..and am not like one who can maintain pace with running time? Everything is into its end without conating lots of stuff. Likewise this post its onto an end without too many stuffs from my heart and brain!!

Nahi pata..

It's about 0100 hrs of morning and am still on net like most of the days and also keeping myself sad by listening sad song. But, but this song is perfect one to be fitted in my frame. Which decently says ..." Am a stranger to this world but am a part of world. If later I look back to see good memories of precious time from past, am sure I will find everyone except me because life taught me to be like you so I forgot "I". Sometimes am confused to understand myself so little me is unable to judge others. Whenever I met strangers, I thought its last meeting of my life but the meeting of once remained intact. Though I learn about strangers but they didn't. Can forget me anytime in their life, I remember them and don't regard those all as strangers."

I accept the fact in life of last four years, I met least people ever as before... but most strange strangers. Who all gave me reason to keep them in my cellular nerves in some part of brain. For few I regret and for few, I question myself WHY I came across them and for few I am having question to myself what will happen to me without eating their precious time and head :-) . It is absolutely their humbleness they allow me to do so.
But none of these will remain forever and everything will end as again an abrupt end of things and a puzzle for my free time in future. Wish few things have been in my control panel and computerized options like delete, move, spam etc. must have done then something.
I enjoy every moment in life now but with a guilt. Now I want an end to that. May be one wrong thing am searching in thousands of wrong deeds to correct myself.