Hostel and Me

I want to write for now something, may be more than something. Last few days have been so rocking. I guess I can write this word because found all of the rocks hitting so hard suddenly. If I, I describe my institute in one word, it would be definitely - " Enigma". Who gifted all rocks.

I wanted to be this place when I was to be somewhere and second time I have have to this place and all the time I blamed others for this. I know it's so unfair in ma part. I got to learn so much from this place. Among all of them is - To be fighter. Wherever and whatever you do try hardest of ever hard you might have done in your life. I guess I have understood that battle up for every little thing is required otherwise you won't know what importance it is having? and most importantly, you will not have the one moment of having things done in your life forever. I guess for this very reason I still remember the very special moment of washing my clothes in first year of graduation though had fever after that, a sever one during finals or take the other day from my second year from grad. washing dishes down in hand pump. Will not attempt to do so after I leave this place ever ever in my life but this is special because I am not ..."not a delicate doll" and will die with a satisfaction that I know what life means in dark while when I have always been living in complete colors.

But not always that you are warrior and can lift your sword to defeat everyone. I guess, I can't all time like will smith in movie - The pursuit of happyness. He was ready to destroy the destruction onto his path. If I think so then might be I have to go entirely against of my college and administration. There are thousand and one reasons to this I have. Dress, Food, Communication and most importantly not the last one Freedom. I lost it long back and somehow I know I don't deserve it. Since last week I am slaughtered by thoughts of being caught of having cell to talk to my parents and big bro. Isn't it quite unfair. Yes it is.

Having Exams hanging around one corner and to another is my result of last sems. Ahhhh gosh! hope someone can speak in better manner than me what dilemma I am living upto. Holding many threads of tides, one is already broken. Wish can save others.